There Is One Part Of My Life That No One Knows About. This Secret Has

There is one part of my life that no one knows about. This secret has caused me to act in ways I thought I wasn't capable of doing. For the past five years, I have been a keeper of this secret, with no intentions to let go of it. I have purposely lied to my loved ones, for the fear of the revelation of my secret would alienate me from the ones I love. In order to guard my secret, I have become very deceiving, alienating, and paranoid. I would avoid conversations that I thought would somehow lead to the discovery of my secret. I became very selective with the people I communicated with. I have in term become a prisoner to this secret, letting it control my every action and thought. I know I should tell my close friends and family about my secret. I cannot go through my life continuing to deceive the people closest to me. Why can't I have the courage to tell people my secret? I envy those who can speak their own mind proudly and not care of the consequences his words can cause him. I dream of that day when I can be liberated from the chains of my secret, and show the world the real me.